Friday, July 3, 2009

I forgive you

It turns out that everything I thought to be my past with my first love is actually quite skewed ... in our talks yesterday, we figured out that what we were each made to believe about the other was simply not true. And we were torn apart by a third, kept apart by that third party and now it's all out in the open.

We've accepted our responsibility for it - we were both young and confused and easily manipulated and so, we were. However, we both see that we're better people for having gone through it and we're both stronger than we were ... and we weren't very string back then when we thought we were.

But I am releasing said third party - I cannot live life holding a grudge and being angry because the bondage would be mine and I refuse to live in bondage.

So, PF - I forgive you.

Really. I do.

Smiling,

JACK

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

So. Are you and MrFirstLove working on a reconcilation? Sounds like there is still "something" there...

L.

The F_Uitlist said...

Forgiveness is healing for both of you. I'm working on being more forgiving these days.

JACK said...

L. - We've agreed that all we lost was time ... and that it's pointless to live in what ifs. But the what ifs are about the future ... and we're good with being cool right now. No guarantees. He's seeing someone and lives 700 miles away.

F$%K it - yes, grudgeholding forces you to live in prison ... and I can control not living there. Third party has demons to fight nowadays anyway. Karma's a bitch.

Dave Van Buren said...

Why and I just now noticing you have an actual pic up??? I'm late.. lol

JACK said...

Superdave - you're super ridiculous. LOl