Is there any harm, really?

Here's a little something about Jack that you may not know (yes, I'm discussing me in the third person) ... Jack will go out of his way for his peeps. Always has. I mean, seriously. Don't get me wrong, I have attitude for days and have been known to be ornery, but ultimately I really am a giver. To the point that I sometimes struggle with actually allowing myself to receive things from others.

But this is a very important fact. If you don't allow someone to give, then you in effect rob them of the blessing they'd receive for doing so. So, i try to let it sit well with me.

HMM-EVAA

At this point, I'm tired. I'm just tired. I feel like the oldest 32 year old in the world. I am juggling two places (a home in one city and an apartment in a city 200 miles away) and I'm traveling back and forth to maintain my parenting time schedule with the kiddos and blah blah blah.

So, in my home city I have a dude who is willing to let me park my car in his driveway and drive me to the amtrak station at 6AM each time I need to work in my apartment city. In the apartment city, I've got a dude I just met who is willing to pick me up and take me to my apartment. And I've finally decided this ...

BOTH these ni*gas can have the train schedule.

I could really use the help and while they're both expecting some play in return, they ain't gettin it. Well, ok - that's a lie. I'm not sure about the apartment city dude (but he's uncut according to his online profile and uncut = uninterested in my world) and the home city dude is already an on again, off again hook up. But, eh! Who cares. Just someone fucking help ME for a change, ok?

Yeah - thanks. The train rolls out at 6:30 a.m.

Oh, and dude # 2 ... the train rolls in at 10:35 a.m.

Thank you both.

-JACK